At the age of five my oldest brother (now deceased) started visiting my room when my parents were gone.He would touch me in "forbidden" places and threaten to beat me up if I told it.After a few years, he got paid for the neighbor boys fondling and doing sexual things to me.My "following" grew to include boys at school and church-yes I said church!
1 Corinthians 7:18 says "flee sexual immorality." Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. To flee means to R U N!!!!!!!! As a child there was no way out! I was told that if I told anyone they wouldn't believe me.As we know satan is the father of lies,and that's one that I heard over and over until I believed it! Even though I didn't open the door for the enemy to come in, it didn't get closed for years.
I became promiscuous and associated sex with love. If a man told me he loved me and desired to sleep with me, I did it. There were no emotional or physical ties,but that spiritual tie or soul tie was something else!
I was so good at faking orgasms and acting fulfilled until I could have had the first realty show.Get paid for sex? Nope...not me...not even a happy meal!
Do you remember the Samaritan woman that Jesus busted out about the many men in her life:? Her name could have been "J." Before you turn your nose up at me in disgust,count your body bags! If you didn't sleep with him/her but thought about it,that counts. If you think it, it's like you've done it,because sin starts in the mind! I wish I could tell you that Jesus blinked and I was healed and delivered from my past instantly. It took prayer and fasting and a group of believers coming together in His name,putting their faith with mine. And........God did it. Of course men that I had been involved with years ago began to show up at my doorstep with the very familiar line of how they couldn't get me out of their minds.Before my deliverance,I fell and I failed! But after God delivered me, my body was the temple of the Holy Spirit! Satan was defeated! I was truly washed, sanctified and justified in the name of Jesus! God is the one that completes us. On top of all of this, He healed me from my past!
Ladies and gents, every time you sleep with someone, you are giving a piece of you away.Is that possibly why back in the day we called it "getting a piece." I had to through that in! You are also receiving the spirit that the other person has. Your soul is being knit to the other person.When you lay down with a person,you are giving up your power. The other person is also getting the precious gift that God reserved for the husband / wife that He has ordained for you. My husband knows all of my past (good,bad and the disgusting)!I also know his. We are open and honest with each other about everything. When the enemy uses someone to bring up my past, I don't argue.I simply let them say what they have to say and then introduce them to me...the new creature!
How do you know for sure that you're healed? It's just like when you have a sore and the scab forms on top. It may look okay, but touching it causes you to flinch or wince with discomfort or pain.When "touching ", speaking of or remembering your sinful past is numb or dead,you just may be healed! Pain is an indication that something's out of order.Salves and band aids sometimes just cover up but don't get to the root of the situation. Ask God to make the crooked places in your life straight.No matter what the sin, God can deliver! I live holy because the word of God says "be holy for I am holy!" My body is now the temple of the Holy Spirit!!!!! It is my prayer that my testimony will help bring you closer or realize that there is a sore spot in your life that needs to be healed.Then and only then can you walk in victory. God bless you!
Do you remember the Samaritan woman that Jesus busted out about the many men in her life:? Her name could have been "J." Before you turn your nose up at me in disgust,count your body bags! If you didn't sleep with him/her but thought about it,that counts. If you think it, it's like you've done it,because sin starts in the mind! I wish I could tell you that Jesus blinked and I was healed and delivered from my past instantly. It took prayer and fasting and a group of believers coming together in His name,putting their faith with mine. And........God did it. Of course men that I had been involved with years ago began to show up at my doorstep with the very familiar line of how they couldn't get me out of their minds.Before my deliverance,I fell and I failed! But after God delivered me, my body was the temple of the Holy Spirit! Satan was defeated! I was truly washed, sanctified and justified in the name of Jesus! God is the one that completes us. On top of all of this, He healed me from my past!
Ladies and gents, every time you sleep with someone, you are giving a piece of you away.Is that possibly why back in the day we called it "getting a piece." I had to through that in! You are also receiving the spirit that the other person has. Your soul is being knit to the other person.When you lay down with a person,you are giving up your power. The other person is also getting the precious gift that God reserved for the husband / wife that He has ordained for you. My husband knows all of my past (good,bad and the disgusting)!I also know his. We are open and honest with each other about everything. When the enemy uses someone to bring up my past, I don't argue.I simply let them say what they have to say and then introduce them to me...the new creature!
How do you know for sure that you're healed? It's just like when you have a sore and the scab forms on top. It may look okay, but touching it causes you to flinch or wince with discomfort or pain.When "touching ", speaking of or remembering your sinful past is numb or dead,you just may be healed! Pain is an indication that something's out of order.Salves and band aids sometimes just cover up but don't get to the root of the situation. Ask God to make the crooked places in your life straight.No matter what the sin, God can deliver! I live holy because the word of God says "be holy for I am holy!" My body is now the temple of the Holy Spirit!!!!! It is my prayer that my testimony will help bring you closer or realize that there is a sore spot in your life that needs to be healed.Then and only then can you walk in victory. God bless you!
You're testimony has truly blessed me. Just yesterday I was praying & asking God to heal me from the wounds of my past. I realized in college that I had suppressed the memories of my abuse. I too began to equate sex with love. It only left me empty & desiring more. I finally have the courage to share my experience & each time I do I feel that I am taking back the power that was stolen from me so long ago. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteAnd we overcome by the blood of the Lamb & the words of our testimony! Thank you for be bold in the Spirit & transparent. I pray that as God continues to heal you, that your words will become life & strength for others to be empowered and delievered
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