I'm healed from my past!

    If you had the "Leave it to Beaver"  or the "Cosby Show" childhood, I praise God for you! That is not what my childhood was like. We resembled the perfect family if you were looking in the natural realm,but in the spiritual realm we were all messed up!I had a wonderful dad, mom and older and younger brothers. I was the only girl and was somewhat spoiled. We had the latest and greatest toys and always plenty to eat. But I had a secret.

      At the age of five my oldest brother (now deceased) started visiting my room when my parents were gone.He would touch me in "forbidden" places and threaten to beat me up if I told it.After a few years, he got paid for the neighbor boys fondling  and doing sexual things to me.My "following"  grew to include boys at school and church-yes I said church!

         1 Corinthians 7:18 says "flee sexual immorality." Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. To flee means to R  U   N!!!!!!!! As a child there was no way out! I was told that if I told anyone they wouldn't believe me.As we know satan is the father of lies,and that's one that I heard over and over until I believed it! Even though I didn't open the door for the enemy to come in, it didn't get closed for years. 

          I became promiscuous and associated sex with love. If a man told me he loved me and desired to sleep with me, I did it. There were no emotional or physical ties,but that spiritual tie or soul tie was something else!

I was so good at faking orgasms and acting fulfilled until I could have had the first realty show.Get paid for sex? Nope...not me...not even a happy meal!  
          Do you remember the Samaritan woman that Jesus busted out about the many men in  her life:? Her name could have been "J." Before you turn your nose up at me in disgust,count your body bags! If you didn't sleep with him/her but thought about it,that counts. If you think it, it's like you've done it,because sin starts in the mind!    I wish I could tell you that Jesus blinked and I was healed and delivered from  my past  instantly. It took prayer and fasting and a group of believers coming together in His name,putting their faith with mine. And........God did it.  Of course men that I had been involved with years ago began to show up at my doorstep with the very familiar line of how they couldn't get me out of their minds.Before my deliverance,I fell and I failed! But after God delivered me, my body was the temple of the Holy Spirit! Satan was defeated! I was truly washed, sanctified and justified in the name of Jesus! God is the one that completes us. On top of all of this, He healed me from my past!    
            Ladies and gents, every time you sleep with someone, you are giving a piece of you away.Is that possibly why back in the day we called it "getting a piece." I had to through that in! You are also receiving the spirit that the other person has. Your soul is being knit to the other person.When you lay down with a person,you are giving up your power. The other person is also getting the precious gift that God reserved for the husband / wife that He has ordained for you. My husband knows all of my past (good,bad and the disgusting)!I also know his. We are open and honest with each other about everything. When the enemy uses someone to bring up my past, I don't argue.I simply let them say what they have to say and then introduce them to me...the new creature!
               How do you know for sure that you're healed? It's just like when you have a sore and the scab  forms on top. It may look okay, but touching it causes you to flinch or wince with discomfort or pain.When "touching ", speaking of or remembering    your sinful past is numb or dead,you just may be healed! Pain is an indication that something's out of order.Salves and band aids sometimes just cover up but don't get to the root of the situation.  Ask God to make the crooked places in your life straight.No matter what the sin, God can deliver! I live holy because the word of God says "be holy for I am holy!"   My body is now the temple of the Holy Spirit!!!!!    It is my prayer that my testimony will help bring you closer or realize that there is a sore spot in your life that needs to be healed.Then and only then can you walk in victory. God bless you!                           

Can you say I submit?

I   One of the fastest ways to see a very sweet lady's smile turn  into what sometimes seems like down right scary is to say   you have to "submit" to your husband! Have you ever noticed that beautiful bride come strolling or floating down the aisle on her wedding day? She is so very peaceful;joy  and excitement are just bubbling from her as she radiates that gorgeous smile.-that is until she hears the pastor say          S_U_B_M_I_T!!!!!!!!!!!! The atmosphere changes. If it could be illustrated through music, it would go from music "fit for a queen" to music from "monster bash!.                                                                                                                                        
     We all want to obey God in every area of our lives,right? Take a deep breath. I have now messed some of you up,because I used the word O B E Y!!!! Some of you don't like that one either,because it's too close to submit! The bible is very clear about submitting and obeying. I believe that we would not make most of the messes that we make in our lives if we would submit and obey. I wouldn't have made them.                                                                                                                                                        
          The word submit means to give over to or to yield your authority to (fill in the blank).  James 4:7 states Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.  If you have trouble submitting to your husband, it may be because you haven't submitted to God!    Let me back up and insert this one sentence. I am talking to married people. Ephesians 5:22 states wives submit to your own husband, as to the Lord.. If you do not submit to God you may not want to announce that you are waiting on your husband or your Boaz as so many say now. If he is a Godly man and you are a Godly woman,it should be a no-sweat situation. This is not a place to try to submit.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          I          I was one of those proud women who would boldly state that no man would ever tell me what to do! I made my own money,cooked my own food, cleaned my own house and paid my own bills! How messed up was my thinking? Totally against the word of God!If I hadn't of submitted to God (it took a while),I wouldn't have the husband that God has truly blessed me with.When he follows God,you will be glad to follow him.But just to help those who still sre talking sideways and turning their necks,verse 21 says submitting to one another in the fear of the Lord. But don't use the word of God as a weapon against your mate. The word is designed to be used against satan--no,you are not married to satan!                                                                             Want to really please God? Submit every area of your life to Him. After that, it won't be uncomfortable submitting to your husband. Take it a day at a time. Practice,practice and more practice. Practice obedience  and submission to God and when it's time submitting will be something that you cheerfully do.If I can,anybody can. God bless you!